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Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Welcome to my life, August~

Finally the day reach, it’s the time to say Goodbye July, and, 
Welcome to my life, August~

The coming of August is meaningful to me, that’s is a day I can stop myself from being too busy, that’s a day for me to start hold my eyes on my booming homework, that’s a day for me arrange my time wisely, not too rush, not too tired. Oh! One more, I don’t really like to do homework at midnight, it’s will cost me a lot of energy, and eat my rest time! Hmm, that’s looks so tasteful for it, so it seems so enjoy, but not for me~

After come back from STMS at Sibu MTS for 3 months, I got only one chance to play badminton with new partners. Since they are new for me, I cannot really play well. After that I’m always swimming in my own swimming pool which I named it as “Busying”~ Ha, is it funny? Yes, I think so, because I still had spent a lot of time on internet which the most on Facebook, next is my lovely blog~ So that’s why I need to rearrange my time, do not play around with time anymore, we need a fair competition, a SERIOUS Competition. Please wait me first, I want prepare myself. But that "time" did not do so.

How about my music instrument? That is what my worried, maybe some does not matter with. At first I thought, the day I’m still in STMS, I won’t have the time to play my music instrument, especially my favorite violin, but the result is not. I felt I’m closer to the violin in this 3 month, I remembered the day I 1st played Violin in front of STMS Student, is on a prayer meeting prepared by our group. Well, even this is 1st time I'm using electric violin, but this not a beautiful memory, because my violin had OUT OF TUNE! OH NO! I’m always use my violin in my class performance, I also felt uncomfortable too, maybe they will say “This person is too show off~!” a dialog always pop out in my mind when I taking my violin with poor skill again. But, 3 month after STMS, wow, I totally giving a great space for violin to take great rest~   I really have quite a long time ignored it. I Regressed. “You must practice! You look just only grade 2.” Yes, this is fact. I really always cannot do well. But this time, I won’t let it be. So, work hard please!

BUT! This few months I played a lot another music instrument, 26/06 that day is my 1st time play drum when Sunday service, but this also the only time I think. The next week, my 1st play bass when Sunday Service until recent. Nice experience.

Come on, Enjoy Life~ God be with me~ 

TzeAi here

Saturday, July 30, 2011

一个毫无胜算的比赛

终于撇开了心里的那颗大大的石头, 我不需要在为所谓的唱歌比赛提心吊胆了~
一开始我不想要参加的, 很不想参加, 因为这又是一个没有胜算的场合
=_= : "明明每一次比赛的感觉都是没有胜算啊"
我承认自己在面对比赛的时候很没有信心, 但由于唱歌比赛一开始只有一点点人, 有人还说酱的情况持续下去, 可能唱歌比赛就办不成了~ 当听了那句话后,为了让比赛能办得起来, 我不理心里的战火, 立马决定要参加比赛. 之后人数增加了, 增加了好多, 我就开始后悔自己为什么这么冲动了, 嘘..偷偷告诉大家, 我真的觉得自己很冲动, 做好了一些行动后, 才来后悔. 奇怪的就是, 到现在都..改不了~~

重点是今天晚上, 但还是带你们走一下时光隧道, 走回到我开始找歌的故事去~
我翻了很多朋友share的视频, 还有到youtube去寻找, 有哪一首诗歌是我唱得来的, 这些歌, 如果用诗班声音的款唱, 没问题, 但如果用真音... 就真的要呃... 多几下了~
其实我对唱歌一直都没有信心, 所以独唱是一个大挑战, 而且这一次我决定用真声唱.. 是傻是笨是.. 还有什么可以形容的吗?

上个星期的和音, 一站上去, 拍子跟不来, 调走开了, 我一直试一直试, 还我对那首歌失去热忱去, 所以决定换歌, 换一首比较熟悉的歌, 这一个星期就一直不断的练习, 自己拿着麦克风, 不断的练习, 这一次, 我只希望自己可以唱得好, 我勉强自己要唱原调, 但是最后还是降一个key比较好~ 练到我连边跑步边练歌的怪招都飙出来了..就这样一直唱一直唱, 唱到有人说我的声音都有点点沙哑了. 但这不是重点~

我不断的告诉自己, 不要当成是一个比赛, 为主而唱, 为主而做, 将这一切献给主, 既然没有胜算那就不要去想太多, 好好的把歌唱好~ 站上台上, 我尽情的唱出来, 虽然还是有一点点紧张, 然后忘了一点词... 但我觉得我唱得很好~ (自恋的人通常是这样子的) 我不是自恋好不好, 只是喜欢欣赏自己嘛... 至少我站上去啦, 至少... 我没有弃权, 至少我从参加了, 至少...我唱了 =)

文中之意看得出我并没拿到名次, 这就是整篇文章的重点, 好了你可以走了, 但我接下来还有话说~xD
我以为自己唱得很好, 可以挤进名次里的~ 不知道是自己太自信还是什么的, 结果公布的时候, 我!!!没得到名次~~T^T 让我哭一下~当下的感觉是.. 失望, 因为其中一个得奖者我压根儿没想到她会得奖~ 不过还是恭喜她啦~大家都唱的很好~
然后就一直拼命的安慰自己, 说没关系没关系.. 这本来就是自己已经想到的事情~ 换个角度去想, 这是一个很好的经验, 是一个很好的体验, 没关系 =') 我没事~ 我会给自己掌声~

借个小角落, 和主题无关的
我...好像离开这里,
这里好没归属感,
感觉好孤单, 好孤单,
给我一个翅膀好吗?
也别把机会拿走,
让我飞翔好吗?
外面的世界,
看起来真的好美,
朋友在外面的生活,
我真的... 好羡慕好羡慕 =(

TzeAi·泽爱

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

我的第一个stop motion



那一次深深的被几位大学生的作品吸引后, 就一直想要尝试着弄
但是, 大忙人就是每天忙着上网, 所以年中假期这么一个好机会我都丢了~
终于前几天心血来潮, 做了几个蓝蓝, 主角叫小蓝~哈哈
拍了65张照片, 整个故事不过才16秒~ 连半分钟都不到呢!
没有声音, 也没有诉说故事~
不过因为是第一次, 所以没考虑这么多~ 哈哈 =)
不过这是一个很好的体验 =)
*第一次将自己制作的影片放上来 xD*

TzeAi·泽爱